Day 13.. a letter to someone who hurt you.

Dear Whomever,

You have hurt me. You befriended me and I befriended you and they with as easily as the waves crash on the shore you have turned around and left me. I thought we were close, I thought we were closer than close. But apparently what it seems was I was just a crutch for a moment. I was there and so you used me, and then I wasn’t needed anymore so you dropped out of my world.

I wont put all the blame on you. I know I have my faults too. I got caught up in my own little whirlwind of crazy things happening in my life. I’m not that great of a texted or caller. But it seems that neither are you once a little distance is put between us. So I’m not blaming you for anything. I will share the blame… but I needed you and you weren’t there for me. We were supposed to be true friends but I guess it was just for a moment because you have your friends and I have mine.

I want to say I’ve forgiven you, and part of me has… time and time again I have forgiven you. And time and time again I’ve been let down. I know That Christ would keep forgiving. But I’m not Christ and this cut has been made to deep, so I give you to Christ, I give my hurt to Christ and He will have to forgive you for me until I can truly forgive you myself.

I don’t wish bad things upon you, I still love you, but I cant play the games anymore and I wont be vulnerable anymore. And when major things happen in my life don’t be upset that you didn’t know because you lost that right when you dropped me. Yes I still consider us friends, but the Holy of Holies moment is gone, and I now se that we are really just outer court friends. And that’s ok. Please continue to move on with your life and I do pray God blesses it.

Jessica

P.S. This letter is not directed toward any one person. And I know it may cause some drama, but I don’t care. I’m gonna be honest in my blogs. And honestly folks, we are all adults here, lets act like it.

P.S.S. If you feel that I have possibly dropped you or treated you poorly, then I am sorry my friend. It was surly not my intention. Please forgive me for being a jerk and a bad friend.

Day 12... How I found out about Blogger and why I made one.

I found out about the blogger.. well Regent Blogger by searching the Regent website before I went to Regent. I decided I wanted one because I remember as a prospective student I didn’t see any theatre major’s up who could tell me what life at Regent was like. I originally started it so that I could let those students know what was school life like, and what was theatre life like.

Sorry Blogger, I have failed you.

Day 10 and 11

Day 11

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

So I’m sure people have songs for each of these emotions but to be honest for me it varies and yet is very much the same. My music is generally Christina and on the occasion secular. But I don’t have any Fav songs for these emotions. Really I tend to put my music on random. SO yeah….

Day 9... Something I'm proud of...

in the past few days I have.... threaded a surger, been there for more than one friend, praised Jesus, stepped out of my comfort zone....

Day 8

Day 8… Short term goals for this month (not in any particular order)

1. Survive

2. Figure out steady payment plan for tuition

3. Grow closer to God

4. Buy a table

5. Get my Guinea Pig Chakita

6. Loose 10 lb.

7. Loose 1 more inch.

8. Get more involved in church

I think those are my short term goals… yep

Day 7.. Picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact n your life.

These two beautiful ladies are my two best friends. Jesus is the one who has made the biggest impact in my life, but these two God fearing woman come second at this season of my life.

Day 6.. Favorite Superhero

My favorite super hero is…. Rogue from X-men… why? Because, I always liked her. I felt like our personalities were the same and technically Rogue could have any power she wanted considering she could touch you and have their same power… I found this amazing… and I mean she wears green my favorite color, and she can fly… which I always wanted to do… yep… Rogue was always my favorite. LOVE HER!