Theatre Major

Being a BA theatre major has been such a great experience. Regent really helps performers define who they are as actors and define who they are as Christians in the performing world. What I've learned most being here so far has been how to set up boundaries as a Christian performer and stand by them.

Continuing Education

Coming back to school after a two year break was very scary at first because I felt so far behind from all the people I graduated with, but God showed me that my timing here was perfect. And he has let me meet such wonderful people who have been where I'm at and they encouraged me. And once you're in the classes, you see that there are people of all ages and degrees and that age doesn't matter so much.

Christian Education

I use to say that I would never go to a Christian University because I thought they would be so strict and uptight. Also I didn't think a Christian University would be able to teach me theatre the way I needed it to be taught. Regent completely changed my perspective. They have a wonderful program and they really encourage us in our walk with God and show us how to co-exist in the world as a Christian.

Theatre Degree

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Summer fun

Last summer- Valley of the Giants. Amazing.... love summer adventures

Friday, June 25, 2010

It's not over

Hey Friends. It’s been a little while since I updated.

I'm still working at Ruby Tuesdays. And to be honest I had almost given up hope on possibly attending Regent in the fall. However because God loves me he has put it in my friend’s hearts to fundraise for me. I'm so honored that they care so much to help me graduate. And also today I heard news that my academic advisor might have a plan on me attending in the fall. I have to set up a meeting with him to here these details but I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I want to attend classes in the fall, but it's hard for me to see right now.

When God asked me if I would be ok with not going to class in the fall, I felt like it meant not going. I know sometimes just asks to see what we say or do, but under my circumstances it was very believable. And now... I was looking at some old writings of mine on another blog and God's asked me to give u a dream before. And so it wasn't a surprise. But then I had to sit and ask myself do I really believe I serve a God who keeps taking me away from the dreams he's placed in me? God doesn't want to see me fail.

Most everybody has there own hurts and trust issues. And to each person its deep and personal and not something we think other people can understand. This is how I feel. I mistrust God with my future because I've been hurt so deeply. And God was protecting me in those times I just couldn't see it. I sit here and ask myself how much is God gonna ask me to sacrifice and give up? And then I realized, He asked for all of it.

It’s such a deep slap in the face when you think you're giving your all to God and then you see how much of your flesh you've actually held back. You see yourself in a whole new light. However you can’t dwell on it and have a spiritual pity party. It’s a painful process peeling of the layers of flesh and laying them on the alter and simply trusting God to be Himself, God… the creator and maker of the universe and the lover of your soul.

So I have 8 weeks before school starts again and I believe God can change things. How I thought my life at Regent was going to be certainly isn’t the case… but it’s not time for me to leave yet. I still have learning to do, and I still have lives to touch.

Jeremiah 29:11

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Update on life...

So update on my life… I’m looking for a second job because Ruby Tuesday just isn’t going to cut it. I’ve applied at the school for three different positions. I’m concerned that the fact that I’m not in good financial standing is gonna be a problem but I’m praying through it. I mean I need a job in order to pay off tuition. I have some great friends though. My friend Julie has been coming up with ideas and ways to get me money to give the school. At the moment we are working on getting some kids together to do a car wash. I’m excited about it. And I feel honored to have friends care so much about my college education.

In other news. I’m going to the eye doctor on Friday. Secret about me… I’m not a fan of the eye doctor. I asked Tianna to accompany me because I dislike it that much. I haven’t been to the eye doctor in so long. I want to say maybe since I was 13 or 14… maybe earlier… I’m not sure. Ok so I’m a little scared. More because I’m scarred they’ll tell me I need glasses. I know glasses aren’t a big deal anymore. But I’ve had perfect vision since I was a little girl. But I have noticed I’ve had more headaches and I’ve been squinting at my computer and when I read. So they may just be reading glasses, but still. I find it interesting that this would bother me. But I really took my perfect eyesight for granted. No I did more than that. It is a hit to my pride in a sense. I was always so proud that I was the only in my family who didn’t need glasses. Although I have been told that its normal for kids need to get glasses once they reach college because their reading has enhanced. That’s weird that because I read more I need glasses. But oh well. If I need glass then I’ll need glasses. And I’ll just get over it, because it really isn’t a big deal.

So Sarah and I have been reading Shakespeare and going through this Shakespeare book. And it really has been great. And we practiced tap. I miss tap. I miss dancing. I also got her and Jen to give me contacts for voice lessons. I’m not sure I can afford it but I’m at least gonna look at it. I miss singing and I want to get my voice back up to par.

I really think that’s it for right now. Nothing crazy. Same ol same ol.

Yes I’m still working on the being content in the moment thing and not rushing ahead. It’s a hard thing for me to do, but I really do need to enjoy just this moment. Even if it’s a boring moment. Because I think I take life for granted. And I need to take it all in and really enjoy my life, even if its not where I thought I’d be or where I’d thought I’d be. I need to accept it and enjoy it.

Monday, June 7, 2010

i want to win a free trip to Africa

http://freeafricatrip.com/?fbid=7yX4DqThTHt

Friday, June 4, 2010

How He Loves Us

He is jealous for me – God, the creator of the universe, is jealous for me… FOR me… not OF me, but FOR… meaning he created me, he has plans and purposes for me, he wants to just spread his love on me… he is fiercely protective of his children and He wants us to be faithful to him as creator-

Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree – God’s love is like a hurricane… a hurricane- a violent wind, uproar or force… and we are trees in a hurricane… God’s love comes in and sweeps us up, uproots us, and surrounds us…-

Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy-being shaped under his protection into all that he has us to be, taking out our heart and replacing it with his…-

When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory- when the glory comes down and it’s no longer me, but God, moving within me… and I get what I call Jesus jerks…-

And I realize just how beautiful you are and how great your affections are for me- becoming fully aware of your excellence and how intense you feel about me…-

Oh, How he loves us so.

Oh, How he loves us

How He loves us so.- He has affection for us, even more so he finds pleasure in us.

Yeah, He loves us

Woah, How He loves us

Woah, How He loves us

Woah, how He loves.- Once again it’s so great it has to be repeated over and over in order for us to understand not just with our heads but with our hearts…-

So we are His portion- each one of us is a single part of a bigger group…-

And he is our prize- we get Him when we strive for Him…-

Drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes- we see favor (approval) in his eyes and it draws us to repent and seek after him…-

If grace is an ocean we’re all sinking- if God’s favor were an ocean.. an OCEAN people, then we are being submerged into his grace which is his favor for us, fully covered, drowning…-

So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss- the sky and the ground meet in a passionate collision…-

And my heart turns violently inside of my chest- you’ve come to the full realization of how intense God feels for you..-

I don’t have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way- I cannot continue to be sad or disappointed in my past actions or myself when I really direct my mind to understand…-

That he loves us.

Woah, How He loves us,

Woah. How He loves us,

Woah How He loves.

Yeah, He loves us,

Woah, How He loves us,

Woah. How He loves us,

Woah How He loves.

I do not think we can fully contain God’s love, because its so magnificent it could crush us. We cannot in our human bodies hold the power of God… but he does le us have sips of it.. and as we get use to the sips he’ll start letting us have sippy cups of it, then regular cups, then moving to pints, quarts and gallons… but its so intense and the more we walk into it, and walk in it, the farther we will be able to relate to this world we live in.. so if you cant handle people thinking you’re crazy, then walk away now, because it’s going to be a bumpy ride and God has crazy things in store but you have to be willing to give your all, and not care about anyone else’s opinion.

Are you ready to jump?